so in a dumb rage yesterday, with a mixture of pain and frustation, i went ape shit crazy on my boyfriend. total bitch status. in the midst of everything and being an emotional wreck, i thought this would be our first fight. in the 3 months we have been together, there hasn’t been one single fight. i have a tendency of losing it and i’ve lost so many people because of it.
anywho, he never lost composure. in a whirlwind of emotions, he never yelled at me. he never called me a single name, which i thoroughly believed i deserved. instead, he showed up to my mother’s house, where i was hanging out after an anxious visit with the doctor. and as he showed up, i noticed a bag. he then took out a stuffed bunny, gave it to me, and hugged me. i couldn’t help but to be overjoyed. after many i love you’s and i’m sorry’s i realized that if he could still love me after the way i acted towards him, we could make it through anything.
as for the bunny having so much meaning, i’ve always wanted a pet bunny. he wasn’t able to get me a real one, so he said that that would do for now. it meant so much to me that he cared so much. even after i yelled at him and treated him horribly, he still made it a point to go out of his way to make me smile. it was the most unselfish thing i have ever witnessed from someone i was dating.
in every other relationship, i was always second best. or third. or fourth. never once did i feel like i was of major importance. i supported ex boyfriends, have been cheated on, abused, and have been made to feel less than i was. and most of my ex girlfriends were the same way. but this relationship is so much different.
i have seen him every single day for 4 months and we still miss each other the second we leave. he counts down the minutes until he can see me and i never want to leave his arms. he’s always there for me and deals with my mood swings. i love this kid so much and i truly don’t deserve him. but i honestly believe he was meant for me. and i could not be any happier.